Universal Shift

I wonder how many people can relate to the feeling of being completely alone? Like, utterly and completely alone and like nobody would actually notice if you were gone. One of the worst feelings I've probably ever felt is that I am replaceable. But it's true. I am extremely replaceable, and life offers gentle reminders which keep my perspective in check. Allll of us are, and will be, replaced some day. But here on earth it's a little more difficult to realize this, with the complications of feelings and efforts and memories and relationships. I have realized that I don't need to be the specific person doing my job for it to be done. I don't need to be at a specific gathering for anyone to notice. My presence is not desired or missed. 

Of course there's the other view, which is the mindset I have been reaching towards for years and FINALLY got a hold of (until last night when I slipped): I am a SPECIAL, UNIQUE and WORTHY individual. I deserve just as much happiness as anyone else and I deserve to find people who treat my compassionate heart with kindness and loving. And I WILL find those people!!! Or in some cases, I will shift my efforts towards those people I already have (regardless how few they may be). When I switch to this pattern of thought, I can feel immediate changes inside my body and the space around me. I am hopeful. 

To realize that I am not special to people around me has been difficult. I have been making efforts to reduce contact with those who harm me - all along I thought it'd be the new people coming in that I needed to protect myself from and now I'm starting to feel the other way. Maybe my job of cutting existing chords is not done yet. So today I am choosing to carry on, remind myself of the "people" who DO always have my back (uhmm myself but mostly my angels) and ask for help in dealing with painful human emotions that I can't escape. I will continue to give my heart away to those around me, hopefully with a bit of reservation and protection but I cannot and will not completely stop. It will not benefit me to allow these things to harden me and change my energy, possibly sabotaging what good could be working it's way towards me. The universe works in marvellous ways, I must never forget that. 🙏✌️

Let your Light Shine

She's stuck in the beautiful disaster of having everything to say while being held in the confines of narrow minded and surface communicators. An independent, ever-present bright light amongst an endless city of colourful and flashy lights, simply hoping there is one more solid bright light willing to meet up like fireflies in the night, becoming inseparable and facing every darkness without fear. Allowing dark shadows to fall behind, simply focusing on the road ahead and how to best navigate together. Allowing no space for fear- no judgment- no tense cords- no alienation- no loneliness- no rejection. Although it may be a remarkable sight, not anyone is ready for the solid light. Some become enthralled by the beauty of the light without really understanding the depth or power source and they get too close only to get shocked. This will cause the beautiful light to short circuit for a minute, but will ultimately cause the light to shine brighter and stronger for those who understand the wiring. A solid bright light will often be taken advantage of, especially when the visual appeal of the flashier lights wear off. This does not reduce the strong and solid lights quality - in fact, it enhances it. Proving that beauty is in the eye of the beholder, and that depth and stability cannot be forced onto those who are not ready - they will only appreciate what they see instead of digging even one layer deeper for the answers. But it is not anyone's job to dim (or flash!) their own light in order to wait for others to appreciate it. Be the strong and steady light that you are to the world. You will attract what you put out, so be fearless and allow that to naturally weed out people who can't keep up. Those who fear your light, don't understand it and/or want to dim it have no reason to hold up a space in your heart. Release those cords and allow yourself to reconnect with lights that display warmth and depth. 

Listen for your Intended Life

"We all have two lives. The second begins when we realize we only have one". 

True, with regards to this one specific earthly life. Anyone who knows me - REALLY knows me - which are not many - will know that I am most definitely a believer of past lives and the fact that our souls have lived soooo many lifetimes before this one. So in that sense, we have a long time to learn our lessons, and a whole lot of previous experience and knowledge when dealing with worldly stressors. Knowledge that exists even without us realizing. Some of us have lived more lifetimes than others, and some of us are more aware of our hidden compartments of knowledge than others-this becomes apparent when talking with people-listen to what they talk about, how they talk about others, see how they treat others. I honestly believe that until we are at a certain point with ourselves, we won't be able to move forward from whatever is holding us back from living our intended life. Lessons need to be learned-and understood-before any type of closure or forward movement can take place. And the sad thing is that nobody can get you to that point except you. Absolutely, people are put in our lives for a reason, and can help us along the way. But they alone cannot be the sole solution to conquering your own barriers. And if they do appear to "fix it"-it will only be a temporary fix. Something great happens when you have faith in yourself and begin to release a need to know how all will turn out. As soon as we let life happen as it intended for us to, a whole lot of tension is eased. The second we realize that life is so much bigger than us is the second that the universe will begin to manifest what we want. That being said, it won't happen overnight or without us putting in the groundwork, which is often the hardest/scariest/most overwhelming-and oftentimes the place that we give up on before even starting. That's not fair, not to us or the endless number of individuals who have come before us and continue to live inside of us, desperately trying to show us lessons along the way on how to live our truth.