Ankleweighted

And I working directly against myself? Am I making myself sicker than I need to be? Or have I found a way to actually deal with it? I think of drowning.. how bad would it be to realize I'm drowning myself? That it's actually me holding me down not other people. How bad would it need to come up for air and realize that I had the ability to take the ankle weights off the whole entire time?  But that's just it.  I do have the power to take off the ankle weights I just have to figure out what ankle weights are exactly. Am I making any sense here?